30 day commitment

I am beginning a 30 day yoga commitment as I settle into my new home in Montreal. Fall is decidedly in the air which means letting go, accepting change of pace as days grow shorter, and harvesting for the winter ahead. This is a commitment to dedicating my days to the divine, and surrendering to what is as the seasons change in my heart & home.

October 30 day commitment:

• Reflection on dreams
• Divine Light Invocation in the morning
• 4 sides of sun salutations in the morning
• Karma yoga 1-2 hours minimum
• Reflection on Swami Sivananda's Daily Readings
• 108 Divine Mother prayers/mantras
• Thich Nhat Hanh visualization exercise before bed
• Reflection on days actions before bed
• Media black out before bed & before yoga practice
• Practice single pointed focus, no blame, compassionate listening, and mindful breathing in daily actions.

Hari Om Tat Sat

Huffing Gas

It’s been years since I worked up the magic blend of courage & cash to leave you.

A little over a year since I realized what you were doing to me was abuse.

Seven months since I decided I wouldn’t let myself be treated that way anymore.

Three months since I started believing there was another option.

And I’m still unlearning all the ways you made me feel less than myself, smaller, quieter, afraid, unloveable, untrustable, unfuckable, unstable, stupid, useless, paranoid, broken, and crazy. My anxiety is worse than ever, but I’m healing. 

I am healing.

I am healing.

I am healing.

I am healing.

I am healing.

Inspired by Everyday Feminism

5x aesthetic fetish

I’m still at the lab. It’s still crazy intense. But tonight I feel electric. Vibrating at a higher frequency. Euphoric. Or maybe just manic? We’ve been chatting a lot at the lab about personal aesthetic – what we’re drawn to & why. Aka our fetishes, aka our preferences, aka our choices. That is really what this list is about every week  – a collection of things I’m drawn to at this moment of time. Maybe by sharing them I can seek to understand them/myself better and make them part of my work. Or maybe these are just fun. I don’t know. You decide.

Enjoy

1. Enchanting new track Stock Neon via Also Also Also
2. Bjork describes television via fellow labbit and lovely human Breanne Oryschak
3. Intro: The Diary of a Sugar Baby via Slutever (NSFW)
4. Fuck Music Let’s Talk About Feelings: Interview with Bethany Cosentenio via Vice one of my favourite musicians interviewed by one of my favourite twitter personas
5. Finally a two (three?) week old horoscope that embodies my #nofuckboyzone mantra. Maybe this is the reminder you need to hear too? My long-term predictions for the next 15 months are a blend of hopeful optimism and a reasonable interpretation of the astrological omens. Here we go: 1. You will have an excellent chance to smooth and soothe the rough spots in your romantic karma. 2. You will outgrow any addiction you might have to frustrating connections. 3. Unrequited love will either be requited, or else you’ll become bored with the futile chase and move on. 4. You’ll be challenged to either refresh and reinvent an existing intimacy, or else get shrewd enough not to repeat past mistakes in a new intimacy. 5. You will have an abundance of good ideas about how to install the theme of smart fun at the heart of your strongest alliances. Via Free Will Astrology  

Rumi

These spiritual window-shoppers, who idly ask, ‘How much is that?’ Oh, I’m just looking. 

They handle a hundred items and put them down, 

shadows with no capital.

 What is spent is love and two eyes wet with weeping. 

But these walk into a shop, 

and their whole lives pass suddenly in that moment, 

in that shop.

 Where did you go? “Nowhere.” 

What did you have to eat? “Nothing much.”

 Even if you don’t know what you want, 

buy _something,_ to be part of the exchanging flow.

 Start a huge, foolish project, 

like Noah.

 It makes absolutely no difference 

what people think of you.

Words to live by

My intensity brings me great joy.

I seek the company of people who love me to be inspired

I must be appreciated for my enthusiasm never shamed

My drive for excellence doesn’t stress me out it relaxes me

I hear by give myself license to

Laugh even louder

Sing even stronger

And think even smarter

It’s not cool to be cool

It’s cool to be burning with a white hot lust for life

I am rising to the next octave

I am playing harder than I have ever played before

Words adapted from a 2013 horoscope on this website.