Things that I don’t feel like doing anymore & don’t know why:
- Drinking alcohol to get drunk
- Making accommodations for relationships that don’t fuel me
- Putting on the pretence of happiness
- Taking nudes & selfies
- Getting angry over the news
- Holding space for people not invested in my well being
- Working myself to the bone
- Working for free
- Skipping meals
- Putting myself second
Things that I am craving & I don’t know why:
- Time alone uninterrupted
- Time in silence among the trees
- Slow jams & female vocalists
- Non-violent TV & media
- Tidy living space
- Manual labor
- Wholistic foods & meals
- Meaningful connections
- Patience in thoughts
- Opportunity to grow new roots
Things that I am doing & I don’t know why:
- Looking forward to going to work
- Giving up on detailed long term plans
- Posting less on social media
- Reading less & consuming less media
- Talking to the point of excess with people near me
- Thinking to the point of excess about how my actions are impacting others
- Snapping at people I am not close to over small inconveniences
- Feeling guilty for not taking care of everyone around me at the expense of myself
- Unable to formulate thoughts & ideas into complete written words
- Looking for reasons to base how I feel off of
Things that I am not doing & I don’t know why:
- Sitting down to meditate
- Talking to my friends about how I’m feeling
- Writing
- Practicing yoga at home
- Working on my creative pursuits
- Looking for another job
- Concerning myself about finances
- Feeling depressed, suicidal, or hopeless
- Starting new projects or latching onto new ideas
- Longing for something or someone that is not already here with me
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