Sunday’s we make lists

  • 2 hours Dear Devotion
  • 1 hour practicing bass
  • Lots of writing – personal & poetic.
  • One rock concert (all dudes)
  • Reading rupi kaur’s milk & honey 💖 also lots of blogs 
  • Spc fundraising meeting with Charlie
  • Audition
  • Laundry & house cleaning 
  • Lots of lady time this week supporting each other & enjoying end of summer 


  • Very volatile mood swings this week. Tuesday evening into Wednesday morbidly depressed, Thursday elated to the point of difficulty concentrating, Friday morbidly depressed again with suicidal ideation. Sunday another high day, hopefully not as manic.
  • Also started period this week possible connection to mood, definitely noticeable on sleep patterns & sex drive.
  • Generalized anxiety about money & future continues. As tides with moods flux.

Next week:

  • 2 board meetings – one for SPC, one for SaskMusic
  • Therapist appointment
  • Rent due, other finances to take care of
  • Start sober September 
  • Call for submissions for alt alt
  • Start regular meditation practice again

Sunday again

  • 2 hr Dear Devotion
  • 1 hr bass practice
  • Chaired board meeting for SPC
  • Caught up with Tom & Tant per Tant
  • Watched: Star Trek & Pokemon
  • 3 music gigs (1/6 bands feat. Women)
  • Mieka’s birthday – campfire jam
  • Read Anatomy of Meloncholy and lots of blogs
  • Therapist appointment 


  • Came down with cold kept me in bed a lot of weekend
  • Anxiety about future feeling pressure to be a lot of things I’m not & go a bunch of places I can’t.
  • Behind on housework due to illness weighing on me.

Next week:

  • 3 hrs Dear Devotion – sketch out plan moving forward
  • Make up missed band practice
  • Get new journals
  • Start new book
  • Prepare for board meeting
  • Fundraising meeting
  • Follow up on new mystery project
  • Clean house
  • Start writing

Sunday Report Card


  • 3 hr band jam, 2 new songs
  • 3 hr rehearsal Dear Devotion
  • 3 hr writing for blog & new mystery project
  • Finished reading Girls to the Front by Sara Marcus 
  • Watched a lot of bad Netflix: Mean Girls, Superbad, Pokemon, Star Trek
  • Signed on to new mystery project for the fall, started conceptualizing 
  • Went to Long & McQuade to check out gear
  • Saw two rock shows (4 bands – all dudes no women)
  • Went to one art opening (3 dudes, 1 woman)
  • Reading a lot of blogs (links to follow in 5x) mostly by women
  • Fire on the beach saw meteor shower
  • Practiced cat yoga, oblique stratagizing, non-judgement, respectful boundaries & standing up for myself, positive self talk, mindful walking, mindful spending, self love.


  • Same finance anxiety, although over all less intensely


It was a good week, felt productive without being stressful, nothing earth shattering just diligent. Pretty low key in a end of summer kind of way.

Intention for next week:

  • Meeting for new project
  • Learn a tab on bass
  • Find objects to play with for Dear Devotion
  • Troubleshoot emotional vulnerability in creation
  • Touch base with venue for Alt Alt & make announcement
  • Write more poetry & start essay
  • More yoga & meditation daily
  • Get new journals
  • Pay bills, clean house, take care of business

Sunday progress report

  • Worked out 6 month funding timeline for projects
  • Began looking at scheduling for Dinner Tables
  • Met with Charlie to discuss Embrace Theatre plans
  • 2 hr band practice, completed one song
  • 1 hr rehearsal for Dear Devotion
  • Create working plan for Dear Devotion rehearsals in August
  • Cleaned house
  • 2 volunteer shifts at the Fringe
  • Saw 3 fringe plays, 1 punk show, finished Jane Jacobs: The Last Interview, listened to CYG podcast, watched Mean Girls, Star Trek, X Files, Stranger Things
  • Practiced bass, cat yoga, mindful walking, seated meditation, flow yoga, non-judgement, positive affirmations, poetry

Challenges of the week:

  • Persistent anxiety mixed with everyday apathy
  • Distracted by heat
  • Poor meal choices & bad sleep habits

Overall: made good progress in spite of (because of?) pervasive anxiety & self destructive thought patterns. Was (mostly) able to channel excessive restless energy into constructive possibilities. 

Studies for next week:

  • Working with recorded text for Dear Devotion development
  • Break Dear Devotion studies into 6 parts
  • Learning scales on bass
  • Get new journals to write
  • Practice mindful speech, non-judgement, cat yoga, seated meditation, mindful walking, conscientious eating